profile eugenia is currently studying in nus fass she misses the times spent with her lovely friends in anderson junior college and her days in that blue and grey uniform shouting across that big empty space twelve june is an important date and white is a nice and pretty colour everyone should smile and be happy because smiling is good for health just like brocolli she is a child of God and she trusts because everything is in His hands(: affiliates 2307!(: gpblog ajdance(: arica ashley beishan beverly brenda cedardance(: charissakwok charmainechoy chloe chunmeng cicilaahh clarissa dione ethel evelyn geraldine huiyi jalene jasmin jeremy jiamin joelmo joshuachee joshualoke julian lorraine mabel natalie nigel pastorkenny pastormary rachelchan samanthaleo samgoh serena serene shawnlim shawnng steph syeyuet terry thomas weijie weijun wenyuan youying yuanyin tagboard credits skin by: jane |
Monday, September 29, 2008
i feel like giving up. i was doing the hci physics paper just now. and i felt really, really helpless. i could only do one whole question on my own, out of the whole paper two. and that was probably the simplest one. this was probably how - felt today, now i understand. that feeling, when you cant seem to do any question, you'd rather not do the paper. and seeing the questions only made me more scared. sigh. that's probably the reason why i dont want to start doing chem and physics papers. im starting to dread school. like alot. the guys are mad. every break, after a while, you only see us girls sitting there, talking and laughing. where the guys went to, you dont have to ask. As is only almost a month away. and im really not prepared at all. im getting very worried, very scared. it seems as if im lagging behind by so much, i dont have the time to catch up. and i still dont have the drive to start. someone, start my engine, please. and not knowing enough to do papers just makes it worse. im regretting not studying hard since the beginning of this year. grades have plunged, or probably i just cant cope with j2 topics. it's amazing how i can actually get the highest for the j1 topic econs essay when i didnt even touch j1 topics. plus people getting more for two essays than what i get for three. as if that's not bad enough, it's a five for one case study. and others, ten odd twenty. oh well, i dont have anyone to blame, really, other than myself. and math. math math math. it's not even giving me the grade i expect to get. let's not talk about the two sciences. since i didnt even really study for them. and im beginning to not listen in class cause i figured i probably wont understand what they're talking about. especially for econs. and probably physics. sigh. im really scared, that i'll see my prelims grade reflected on that result slip. BIG BIGG SIGH. people who've known me since sec one, when i complain to them, and tell them that i've been very lazy, very slack. they dont believe me. they just go 'if you're lazy, who's hardworking?' why dont you all believe me. me being hardworking once doesnt mean i still am you know. and some just tell me im very smart, i can do it. stop telling me that, really. eugenia ling is not smart. i miss those Os times. the days where at least i had them to study with me. going to serangoon macs almost every single day, and having macs for meals two meals a day. they're having their holidays now, while im suffering in school): at least those days they know what im going through cause they're going through the same thing, now they dont. Father Lord, only You can help me now. like julian says, give me the grades that i dont deserve. i know i havent been walking close to You, even neglecting You and turning to You in times of need, like now. but Lord, i really, really need You. and my face is becoming worse. that's not helping much. it looks as if it's going to rot. i feel like just wearing a paper bag and cutting two holes for my eyes. RAHH. and, butterfly died): probably because of ich. sometimes it's nice to just have someone to whine and complain to, and gain some encouragement and sweet-nothings in return. |